@ work now. i love how my blog has gotten me back into html&css&desiging. its a love&hate relationship though. because working on this has been keeping me up real late... but lately i haven't had the urge to do anything other than be by myself in my room. this has been going on for a while now. i just don't feel the same. like somethings missing. where's my puzzle piece???? i feel overwhelmingly incomplete. like i'm missing an organ or something. this blog helps fill some of that void. yeah, i know very lame of me but honestly nothing captures me anymore. it's as if everything and everyone around me is one big blur. i now have this ugly expectation that everything and everyone around me is (sooner or later) going to end up a disappointment. a distress. i see NO buoyancy, NO light in anyone or anything . just one big gloomy downfall waiting to happen. i try not to get too personal in my blog. try not to touch upon my personal life. my intimate feelings. i'll show the tip of the iceberg but try my best not to submerge.